It has been over five years since I have used deviantart.com and I have missed it, I have been busy working on a musical project, setting up a space for bands to rehearse and record.
In this time I have somewhat managed to lose almost all of my previous life and most of the people in it, only my true and dearest friends have stuck by me and my beliefs, through the times when I have been penniless and homeless sleeping alone on the cold concrete floor of the studio as it gradually forms around me.
I have got to a point where I no longer need another job to help fund the studio, it is now, at its halfway point, breaking even, and a weight is starting to lift from me.
The future is looking promising, my dream is actually starting to become a reality, working with up and coming musicians in a world of music, art, happiness and generosity.
As I mentioned the halfway point is just about here, over the next few years I intend to expand the studio in to the two units alongside the current two that I own, but at a pace that will give me back some free time to marvel at, and use the world outside and around me for different projects such as my love of photography(although most likely still penniless).
I have always wanted to be in this position, away from the rat race, interacting with people on my own level instead of trying to be the person I was expected to be, and I think, I am now the closest I have ever been to experiencing life as it should be, not interested in financial gain, houses, clothes or possessions whilst having the space to sit and listen to others and their dreams.
It hasn't been easy, it was never going to be a quick fix, around five years of planning and building has taken its toll, a lengthy period of working two jobs for 18 hours a day to still end up with no money to eat, the people around me who doubted me are nowhere to be seen now, although I regret none of the steps i have taken to get here, because I am sure this was my destiny all along.
I am now on the brink of true happiness, with some very special people around me who love me for what I really am, I am blessed to have them in my life and the love they give to me will be returned with the same passion I have for life itself.
I have never been, nor will I ever be, any better than anyone else, but I will be happy.
Live the dream.